not feeling good

So right now I'm super sick. I don't get sick very often but when I do its brutal. My temperature today was
104 degrees! I really was in a lot of pain like I could barely move my body. I felt so weak
I mostly felt dillusional I was acting all sorts of weird. Which I believe I annoyed my girlfriend after awhile.
I feel really bad cuz she had a lot of shit to get done but she was busy taking care of me.
I could tell she was getting frustrated that she kept pushing everything back that she wanted to get done.
From that point it was one thing after another. It was like I ended up on the other side of the fence and
Don't know how. We just started butting heads and it really shot me down. I'm sitting here
By myself in my room while she's out side in the living room tryna take care of shit. I can tell
She's stressed cuz every other minute I hear her yelling at Marlee. I just wish she loosened
Up a little. When something bothers her its like a chain reaction to her whole night.
And for me I don't know if she's approachable or not cuz she's got this stone cold look on her face
Like she doesn't want to be bothered. And the bad habit I have is approaching the
Situation cuz I hate to be contagious to her moods. I don't know what I'm trying to get at
I just feel like a loser and I mess things up more than it already is. I'm just trying to start over
And be happy and not be so "on my toes" all the time. We got a lot of things going on right now
and we just need to get through it. We will get through it. I just want it to be as streess free as possible.
I just can't be picky. I'm trying to be supportive. I really am.

And if this sounded like I jumped around a lot.. I didn't proof read it. And I'm still delirious. I'm going to bed now I hope I'm better in the morning.

Late Nights - Early Mornings

Sooo the girlfriend is up right now and its 1:11am and has to be at work by 9:15. Which meeeans she'll have to be up even EARLIER than that to get ready and start the day.

So what's keeping her up so late?

She's determined to find the right font codes for her myspace so instead of Times New Roman it displays in Arial. Yup. My girlfriend is a nerd. But I love her. = ) And she's completely oblivious to me writing this about her right now cuz shes THAT determined to get this code right and make her page look PRECISELY the way she wants it (shes on her laptop sitting like two feet away). That's what happens when you are in an Arts major. anyways I'm going to sleep and hopefully she'll soon follow.

Dreams...

are fucked up. Don't usually remember them. Don't usually care to. Most of the time they're super boring and if I do remember them I'm like, "Why did I just dream about a bunch of people just sitting around my house not doing anything?" or "Why did I dream about school and sitting in clss writing a paper. There's cooler things that happen at school but I choose to dream about that?" But recently, I've been remembering them. And they've been suuuuuper vivid and real. just these past three days. The type of dreams where you wake up and check around and have to come back to reality from the "reality you thought you were in" (if that makes sense). And to be honest, they haven't been very good dreams. So the wake ups are panics. Panics that I lost grip of what-should-be. But then... everything is. And that's why dreams are fucked up. To have that ability to syndicate a false reality. Fuck you dream. That hurt my feelings lol jk but seriously. This is kinda just a spillage of my frustration without going into detail. It's not important what my dreams actually were, I'm just laying out the scenario. yezzir. First blog? Yes.

I think I'm going to change my blog title to "The pointless insight of Robert" yup yup later doods.